||[Mar. 24th, 2009|10:45 pm]
GLBT Alcoholics/Drug Addicts
Yesterday the speaker told this story:|
I had been saying my prayers like my sponsor told me to, but I never knelt. I always just kind of said them while doing whatever or laying in my bed.
One night I was out to dinner with a group of people, including this grizzled, tough old biker and we were talking about prayer. Thinking I would impress him with my cleverness, I said to him, "I never kneel to pray. God can hear my prayer whether it's coming from my bed, or from a foot or two down to the floor."
He looked at me for a moment and said, "You just don't get it, do you? It's not about the distance the prayer has to travel, it's about humility, and you could use some."
This really got me thinking, because I don't kneel to pray either. I figured what's the point of taking on a position of subservience when I don't even believe in God? I mean, I'm not even praying to anything, I'm just focusing my thoughts and energy.
But that story really got me. I'm not taking on a humble position for God, I'm doing it to remind myself that I am not God. I am not in control, I am powerless over changing anything other than myself. I am not the be all, end all. I'm humbling myself to the concepts of kindness, goodness, loving others and all those other traits I find myself falling so far behind on.
I'm not humbling myself for a deity, I'm reminding myself to stay humble all day long.
It is about humility, and I know I can use some.