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Help! [Apr. 30th, 2009|02:25 pm]
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I picked up an application today to work at a national museum where I would be working with children. I REALLY want this job; I'm going to school for speech pathology to work with kids. I just love them!
The problem is this, they do a hair drug test and at first I thought I was OK, because the last time I had done cocaine was in January of '07. But then I remembered on my last two drunks I tried crack, once in November of '08 and once in December of '08.
My hair has been cut shorter twice since then, but not shaved off, so my question is, is it going to come up in the drug screening? Does anyone here know if it's been long enough?
I'm afraid to get it done hoping it will be OK and then have it turn up positive and ruin my chances of working there later.
Do I have a chance?
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Where is Love? [Apr. 30th, 2009|08:52 am]
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[Current Location |Work]
[Current Mood |tiredtired]
[Current Music |Virginia Woolf - Indigo Girls]

At times, we turned to chemicals because we couldn't love ourselves. Our addiction gave a promise of relief, but it gave us self-hate. We wanted to love, but couldn't. What is it we really love ? Where should we put out energy ? In raising children ? In creating art ? In helping addicts who still suffer ? There's much in this world that needs our love. We can be many things in our lives. Let's be people we believe in. Let's be people we can love. ~Keep It Simple
Came across this quote today, thought it was beautiful and worth sharing.

Happy Thursday!!
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To Compare is to despair [Apr. 28th, 2009|10:51 am]
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[Current Location |Work]
[Current Mood |hopefulhopeful]
[Current Music |Oh, Lady Be Good - Ella Fitzgerald]

I heard this so many times when I first came in - so I tried very hard not to do so at meetings. These last 2 years and 2 months, I've been successful doing so inside the rooms of AA.

last night - I realized how practicing these principles in all my affairs can help.

I was out with a guy I'm seeing. He's younger than me, more educated, has his equity card, auditions every day of the week, takes a class and basically WORKS for all he's got.

I sat there & couldn't focus on the pleasant night air nor this beautiful man in front of me because I was BLINDED by despair -why? because I was comparing.

That is his path, I have mine. I have fear he'll judge me. I kcik myself for being SUCH a fantastic mess that I'm just starting the journey he's always been on.

In the end, it takes what it takes. There are no odds against me, only a loving higher power who is for me and will help me surmount my worst enemy - myself.
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the flight of Icarus... [Apr. 28th, 2009|03:00 am]
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[Current Location |separate universe, France.]
[Current Mood |curiouscurious]
[Current Music |David Bowie - Rock & Roll Suicide.]

My mother is a meth addict/alcoholic and now I am addicted to cocaine.

This was supposed to change when I moved to Paris, to escape my parents.
It didn't.

I'm 19 years old.
I strip to get money for cocaine.

I... don't know what else to say.
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Spiritual Solutions grp. Starts 4/23 @ 10am (4 wk gathering) (East Village) [Apr. 19th, 2009|04:34 pm]
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[Current Mood |cheerfulcheerful]


I have developed a 4 wk brief course called Spiritual Solutions.
This is quite awhile in the making and based on mindfulness in action.

It's low cost- $25 per wk or $100 for 4 wks that will being you to a better sense of fulfilled, mindful living.

As a social worker by career, I have developed this non traditional setting over years of experience. I work with GLBTQ youth and adults and am a person who is gay, partnered and many yrs in recovery.

Only 3 people at a time in this grp setting, bring maximum benefits and personalized focus.

For more information, pls contact me and we can discuss any questions you may have.
A clear notebook and a positive attitude and we can get started on solutions that work for you.

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A little OT, but I thought people would appreciate it [Apr. 3rd, 2009|01:49 pm]
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[Current Mood |cheerfulcheerful]


Iowa is now the third state that realizes there's nothing wrong with two people loving each other!
This makes me so excited ^_^
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(no subject) [Mar. 28th, 2009|10:06 am]
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[Current Mood |gratefulgrateful]

"This is a new day, one that I have never lived before.
I stay in the now and enjoy each and every moment"
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Humility [Mar. 24th, 2009|10:45 pm]
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Yesterday the speaker told this story:

I had been saying my prayers like my sponsor told me to, but I never knelt. I always just kind of said them while doing whatever or laying in my bed.
One night I was out to dinner with a group of people, including this grizzled, tough old biker and we were talking about prayer. Thinking I would impress him with my cleverness, I said to him, "I never kneel to pray. God can hear my prayer whether it's coming from my bed, or from a foot or two down to the floor."
He looked at me for a moment and said, "You just don't get it, do you? It's not about the distance the prayer has to travel, it's about humility, and you could use some."

This really got me thinking, because I don't kneel to pray either. I figured what's the point of taking on a position of subservience when I don't even believe in God? I mean, I'm not even praying to anything, I'm just focusing my thoughts and energy.
But that story really got me. I'm not taking on a humble position for God, I'm doing it to remind myself that I am not God. I am not in control, I am powerless over changing anything other than myself. I am not the be all, end all. I'm humbling myself to the concepts of kindness, goodness, loving others and all those other traits I find myself falling so far behind on.
I'm not humbling myself for a deity, I'm reminding myself to stay humble all day long.

It is about humility, and I know I can use some.
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A bit too new? [Mar. 2nd, 2009|06:11 pm]
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This ever happen to anyone else?

This morning I felt a bit overwhelmed. AA has taken me out of a negative place and immediately dropped me into a new positive one. The people, fantastically supportive, are all new to me. My free time has been spent in meetings and coffee afterward (fellowship). I moved to a new apartment as well.

Just wondering if anyone else felt a bit overwhelmed and wished for their old life back, not for the drinking, but for the familiarity?
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Having a Program [Mar. 1st, 2009|02:14 pm]
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[Current Mood |calmcalm]

Becky and I were talking last night about people who, although they have been coming to meetings for years and years don't actually have a program and aren't really working the steps, just going through the motions. I found this story today and it really made a lot of sense to me, so here it is:

"A woman who practices reciting Buddha Amitabha's name, is very tough and recites "NAMO AMITABHA BUDDHA" three times daily. Although she is doing this practice for over 10 years, she is still quite mean, shouting at people all the time. She starts her practice lighting incense and hitting a little bell.
A friend wanted to teach her a lesson, and just as she began her recitation, he came to her door and called out: "miss Nuyen, miss Nuyen!".
As this was the time for her practice she got annoyed, but she said to herself: "I have to struggle against my anger, so I will just ignore it." And she continued: "NAMO AMITABHA BUDDHA, NAMO AMITABHA BUDDHA..."
But the man continued to shout her name, and she became more and more oppressive.
She struggled against it and wondered if she should stop the recitation to give the man a piece of her mind, but she continued reciting: "NAMO AMITABHA BUDDHA, NAMO AMITABHA BUDDHA..."
The man outside heard it and continued: "Miss Nuyen, miss Nuyen..."
Then she could not stand it anymore, jumped up, slammed the door and went to the gate and shouted: "Why do you have to behave like that? I am doing my practice and you keep on shouting my name over and over!"
The gentleman smiled at her and said: "I just called your name for ten minutes and you are so angry. You have been calling Amitabha Buddha's name for more then ten years now; just imagine how angry he must be by now!"

Faith without works is dead.
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